It's been a while since my last entry here, and a lot of things has happened ever since, the other day I watched a video at youtube, about Steve Jobs...here is the video:[link]
IT really made me think a lot of stuff, the last two years have been really really awful for me,and I've changed a lot, I've dome some stupid shit I thought I would never do.
I made a decision 2 years ago, and I didn't knew what was gonna happen, but like Steve said in the video, I just trusted everything would be okay, and I still do, I'm trying to get back on track, but everytime I try to, something push me back to the ground and it's really hard to get back up.
When my mother died back in march, I jsut felt really bad, because I was the one who choose to move, for what I belived in my heart was the right thing to do(and I still haven't changed my mind), and I still remember our last phone call, when I told her how much I love her...
Right now I feel trapped, and sometimes I feel like I lose myself, for a long time I haven't had a clue about what to do about it... art was the only thing I kept with me all this time, but I ended up in a job where I couldn't work on what I love anymore, so I started to fall even deeper.
My best friend has stayed by my side all this time, and I wish I coould help her better, she has never turn hr back on me, and sometimes I feel like I've done that with my attitude, not willing to keep going and I'm sorry for that, but now I'm trying again, no matter how much it hurts I'm trying to get back to be me, to do what I love...
two years ago I took a risk, and lost a lot of things in my life, I'm gonna take another one in a few days by quitting my job, and try to build up my life again.
I have a lot of plans that I haven't been able to accomplish due to different circumstances(like I didn't have the money to do so, and my PC died on me..), I'm trying to publish a magazine about art, to help the art community here in Mexico, to help artist to make a living doing what they love to do, and to show them how can you fulfill your dreams if you try hard enough.. and hopefully now I'll be able to do it.
So wish me luck, it's not gonna be easy at all,but that's how life is.
Stay tunned, I'll be drawing a lot and uploading new stuff here once I get my new PC by the end of the week.
Hope everyone is doing good~
- Still Planning how to do them xD